Why am I doing this?

When I was first diagnosed with Hodgkins, my cousin Joe said that I should start a journal.  I told him that I was too angry and that it would probably be a lot of psychotic babble.  I guess I was afraid that someone would read it one day and think that I'm a nut.  So why three months later am I writing a journal for the world to see?  I've been wanting to start writing one for a few weeks because I think it's theraputic.  I want this journal to be mostly about my emotional experiences and how I came to be at this good place.  Maybe someone out there needs to read something like this.  So I am going to try to share my thoughts with those who would like to read them.  It's pretty scarey putting your personal thoughts out there, especially for a private person like myself.  But I am going to give it a try and see what happens.